anyway im werking today ..n werking nyte shift lo..jakpeng is at my hm ...n goin to start werk liao ..so i ask lily cum to my place ..cox...yasin n his mum not in spore ..kecian dia ...so she can no think much at my hm to chill ...so start werking liao lo...lily msg mi say she otw liao ....so when she reaching ..i go pick her up ...b4 i go dwn i say to jakpeng i wan to buy waffle...so i take $2 out ..n he give mi $4 ..he want penat waffle...so i went dwn ...pick lily up liao ..so we went to go buy waffle..lily n mi same ..we buy 2 chocolate waffle..1 penat for jakpeng n my daughter wan a small chocolate cake ...total$4plus ...if not my wrong la...haha ..so after all went bk my hm ..lepak n else ..tok merapek ...biase la kita kan ...so this n that ..i msg adi ...ask him to help mi ..to topup my pp8 ..cox left 1dollar plus oni ..she say ok ...then i ask adi cum my place to lepak ..so awhile later adi reach liao ...lepak for awhile ...went dwn with adi n lily ..mit my fren jian xiong for awhile ...then we go 7eleven ..he spent around 12 dollar plus lo..kecian dia ..everytime cum mit mi sure spent money ...sori ..but adi i promise wenever i got money liao ..i will treat you bk ...i hope u understand ..now i reli rabak ..all dun have liao ..no money ..easy la ..all dun haf liao la ...i just left u fren je ...watever it is i love you all alot tau ...tank for being there for mi ...i happy i got fren like u all ...xspecially adi ..tank u ...anyway adi buy for mi 2 red box rokok,lily 2 also,herself 2 ..n 1 mentol for jakpeng ...after all went up bk to my hm ...jakpeng was like wanna to tok to adi ..but jakpeng like dun wan to let me know ..i feel piss abit siak ..i dunoe why ..feel like fuck siak ...n lily also toking with them ...hmphh...im so angry lo...why cant i know siak ..haizzz...so after all ..that last i say la ..u 3 tok ..who wan to ok to mi siak ...?!!!ten adi teman mi to my room ..we was talking ...at last i heard from mouth he dun wanna to make mi stress again ..i say wat la ...so adi told mi that lily know about this ..i ask wat la ..i tell adi kalau u dun tell mi urself ..i will ask lily ..so i run to lily ..rabak sia lily ..she say she dunoe anytin ..hmphh....n ten at last adi told mi that she tell mi ..so at last he say he still syg mi ..i was like ..alamak ..1 more cuming ..i tot he use to say to mi syg mi is just action je ..but now i feel adi really very great n paitent siak ..adi can tahan c mi like this ...when i reli nid she ..she reli cum to mi ...n lastly know that she actuli syg mi ..i feel so fuck up again lo...i dun wanna to hurt anyone serious ..i dun wan ..i know it hurt ...i told myself i wan to b happy ..that all ..why ..why ...why am i so fuck up ..making people ard mi feel hurt ...n i heard some words that jakpeng say is abit hurt mi ..but i acept wat he say ...wat he wan to say let him say ...let him b ..i dun wish to give people hope ..i scare to hurt people ..serious la ..i dunwan ...i reli dunwan ..what should i do now ..im reli empty now ...feel sad about the word that from their mouth ...im so fuck up la ...why must i hurt people why ....?!!!!!feeling suck now ....with all words ..why must i kena like that ...wat jakpeng told mi that he wanna to leran dance now ..so can kenal2 ngn pompuan ...ok ..good for him ..i reli wish u can get sum1 more better ...but pls ...remember wat the mistake u ever do ...dun repeat again ...i say to myself liao ...siapa2 nak leave mi just leave ...i wont beg to stay ...wat i know is love is hurt ...sumtyme is suck ...i hate being this picture ...its so suck ..suck n fuck ...bullshit ...nak love pun macam sial ?!!!sial la ..serious la ..i feel so mankok in my life siak ..why i dun wan money ..got money i can go kalaoko sing until i happy ...release all my stress out ?!!!!!fuck la ....ape nak jadi ...jadi je ..i have enuf ...i will just go do watever tin that can make mi happy ..i dun wanna to tin anytin ...is reli make my head so painful ...my head now is like fucking heavy ...but watever it is ..aku nak happy la ...ape krg ni semua nak buat ? buat je ....i wont beg u all to stay ..remember ..wats meant to be ...will alway find it way ?!!!!!fuck all la ..i cant b bother anymore ...but serious ar...i feel hurt ...nvm ...i choose to b that way ...so i acept it ..i dun nid krg nak kecian aku ...serious ...i just wish my gf all will b there for mi that all ...i hate love la ..i hate it so much ..i dunoe why ....hateeeee?!!!!!EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!oh ya just got sms n msn with naz ...u want to knwo sumtin ..naz put at is msn pm wat ?[missing sum1..does she know ?..u will alway be my baby!!gemok aka pang pui ?!!]tat is mi lo...call mi gemok n pang pui ?!!bodoh punya naz....bencin bodoh ?!!!!hmhphhh?!!!!anyway goin to swimmin with him in the mornin ...n after swimming he want to mit mi at night also ...n just now jakpeng told mi he want to bring mi out 2moro night ... i really dunoe how siak ..let c how la ...or mayb 2moro nyte i mit up with other people better kan ...haizzz...feel like fuck siak ..fuck go n die ..dun wan to think ....all bullshit ...fuck ?!!!!NBCB bodoh ?!!!!!!!!!bencin ?!!!!!!nak mampos?!!!!!!bencin mani2?!!!!hmhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! “TheOnlyEllysha.”

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