I won't miss you anymore. Tc of urself well .. “TheOnlyEllysha.”

Even Saturday was enjoy with fren n kidz.. But I still miss... “TheOnlyEllysha.”

Star light, star bright,Upon the brightest star on the sky tonight,I made a wish. Please take all my feelings and emotions away,I don't want to feel something so painful call Love ever again.. “TheOnlyEllysha.”

It's true that you cant move on until you let go but how do you let go when you love someone this much... when everything you do reminds you of him... “TheOnlyEllysha.”

People won't ever tin of the good youhad done .. ONI will tin hw bad u had done! .ellysha !wakeup.. Trust no1 .. So far my belover anak ngn fais is the best! “TheOnlyEllysha.”

Been not well since last weekend .. Having bad headache.. Doctor say my headache due with my stress .. He ask mi is better do sonetin abt it .. If not wil b serious shit .. I just dont noe hw to handle it .. Even I had already make the choice .. But I just don't y .. I'm still feelin So confuse ..fren told mi everytin is still fresh .. It's nid to take sometyme to heal dwn .. But I still miss you .. U r just the tattoo alway stay at my heart .. Tin he been happy for all .. I reli happy for him too ..whatever it Is no1 will ever understand what I tin n wat is in my heart .. Biar la aku yg cam sial .. Tak pasal .. Tuhan ade Mata can see ... N Today had done my third session laser .. Is painful nw .. Hopefully by this year can clear off ..,.,,... I have a fruit wars today is aweful .... Rindu :) “TheOnlyEllysha.”

“TheOnlyEllysha.”

I'm not happy at all ... I still dunoe wat I really want . I feel so bad whenever I hurt anyone..but who know deep inside my heart no1 know hw I feel ?people only see the frontward .. But not the backward.deep in my heart I ONI can say sorry.. I feeling useless ..! I'm useless .. :(. Ya Allah kuat iman ku la... Amin.. :( “TheOnlyEllysha.”

I'm sorry ... “TheOnlyEllysha.”

in the morning.. when wanna to go werk then start raining ... took cab to werk .. but im still wet .. werking with shila today .. was very busy .. n i was no mood at werk .. all the way mcm nak marah jee... wat goin wrg mi pun tak tahu...i just feel so no mood again .. i dun understand ... why ? why ? n why ?? i feel like everytin is messin up nowww... i dunoe wat should i do ... i must b strong .. i must b stronge... n ellysha lim will be strongerr... im tired with sadness all overr.. i wan to b happy .. i dunoe want to sad .. i dun wan .. life is just full of bullshit .. i feel so useless alway .. now my head is feelin sometin bothering mi seh .. why ?ape tu yg at my otak nii!!!argghh...... fark laaa!!! ya 2moro i will be taking half day .. in the noon need to follow mum to hospital .hopefully everytin will go smooth... hope no more operation ..no more pain n suffer for motherr... just now went to makan with him , bacin,hairul n the mum .. at aiman ... i just dunoe why when i rch there i feel soo 1 kind lo.. i also dunoe y seh ..i miss my last year so much=) n.. i dunoe wat to say ...
tin wanna to go sleep now ..

ya allah , tolong la kuat kan iman ku . AMIN.

misses n huGXx “TheOnlyEllysha.”

“TheOnlyEllysha.”

Today . Public holiday .. Im werking.. Xtra paid ma.. Was very busy today... At lunch tyme I was sleeping in the clinic along ... After Werk went bk home.. No one ar home.. I wash up n go sleep... Wake up at 9plus.. He came over fetch mi n go makan .... Haha .. I dpt eat my dengdeng ... Have our dinner for maggie goreng with ayam .. Bestt .... Fasting month start Liao.. Hope can fasting all the way .. Hee..somehw just miss the last year fasting month... :) I'm omw hm nw .. Balik nak sleep la.. Nyte .. “TheOnlyEllysha.”

saturday , sumtin make mi feel dissapointed .. but nvm .. forget abt itt.. just go forward but not backward.. saturday night when clubbing with him n his frens.. celebate POLAr BDAY..N this is the first tyme i saw most of their member2 .. ramai pee..the place is totally mcm ours siak .. HAHAHA..i drink lot siak ... n i mabok la siaakk .. walk also not betol2 ..haha .. luckily got them to take care of mi .. xpecially FAIS.. tank SAYANG..one words i can say is DRG GILER la... open bottle mcm water siakk... i tin there more then 10 bottleee... ish.ish ..really enjoy... it been so long nvr drink this much n get high n mabok .. HAHHAA...reach home at 6am sioll...so bath then go sleep ..

sunday morning.. he n his budak2 ade pinic kat ECP ,so wake up at 10plus in the morning go breakfast .. we have prata ...... then then when back bath n siap ... at 12plus follow him go AMK to collect 80 packet nasi lemak .... for the pinic .., then go to yishun n fetch his daughter ..n then go to ECP to mit their fren ... enjoy there with the fren, n the kidd... i tin this is call family pinic... all with their wife n kidd.. heee.. we bth dah mcm a small little family .. heee... the daughter call mi umi .. heee... swit kan .. the daughter n my anak can reli get along very well .. so far still so good... they bth is small little brownies laaa... hehee..kakak n adekk.. cute pee.. heee... actuli they ajak us to tagg along to azura today .. but we bth say no.. cox we want to bring the kid go jalan2 n makan ... so after that we went to marina .. somtyme very nice n i like alot n laugh alot is ... mi,shirin , him n his anak in the car we dance n shake our body .. i tin it been sumtyme that i nvr really laugh til my stomach pain n laugh til i cant breath ...lol.. it really sweet seh .. really love this moment...N have our dinner there.. LONG JOHN SLIVER... best ... the anak same as mi like to eat the sweet corn .. heee... so after that jalan2 .. n we walk to xplanet ..n walk to merlion ..n make mi remind of sumtin there ...but i know im stronge ... so fark itt....N they bth r very adoreablee.. love them laaa...the bth mouth REALLY like macik kpo siakk ... HAHAHHAA...actually tot let his anak sleep over my place tapi ..esok im werking ..so no one tak care .. so just send her bk home jee...she like to eat durian too .. hehe.. this cuming wednesday we goin for that ... honey you wait okay .. hehe... now im so tired ... im goin to bed ... nyteee..=)
i start to love my life now ..is so like the small little family .. hehe ..i like ..i suka laaa// HAHHAA...

nyteeee=)

ya allah ,tolong kuat kan iman ku ...AMIN.

misses n hugg ..
BROWNIESS=) “TheOnlyEllysha.”

Today I feel upset so much ... Upset... Very upset .. Ya Allah kat kan iman ku . AMIN “TheOnlyEllysha.”

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