i feel sad la ... yesterday midnight at 5plus then wan to sleep ...but cant sleep weelll...i wannt to cry out ... but oni 2 tears out ..trying to cry out more ..so will be better ..but cant .. y siak ... sumtin like stuck sia in my heart .. keep looking for the window ... n keep listenin the rsk the motor sound .. ten go n c ... but it not ... yes i wish that yesterday he will b bk ... but since like he like forget abt siak ..maybe ya he with his fren ..so busy in so many tin ... not like mi ....stupid just stay at hm oni !!!!!!haizzzzzz...tak macam bodoh ke mi ?!!!!!haiiisssss...in the morning i got his msg ... he asking mi ..wat r we now ?wat a question .. i tot he the one who make who say everytin out wat... ape lagi siak ..ape lagi siak aku saalah ... ape lagi ... aku tak paham siak ..serious laaaa “TheOnlyEllysha.”

today finish werk early becox of sumtin ...

my fren n the bf ask mi tag along to zouk but i no mood, my fren ask mi go watch movie , .another ask mi go lepak ...just dun have the mood .. but i dun wanna to stay at hm .. but how siak no mood to go out ... haizz... wat shall i do ?i still at hm nw ... wanna to go out la..but dunoe go werrr.. should i or nt leh ? can say that after having a relationship i losee my frenss..who alway bring mi out to enjooyy...all my gfs are so lucky then mi siak ...got bf to teman ,or got fren n family teman ... not like mi all alone now ... all aleep ..sumore my sister wont b cuming bk until nxt week .. if not at list got people to tok cock with mi ... haizz ... i feel like crying siak ...so lonely siak ... stupid siak mi ..why reject to go with my fren ...but go also no use ..with the bf ma ...i hate this saturday nyte .... i hate it so much ... everytin is so unfair ...i feel like goin west coast to relax alone ... shouldddd iii .... i mean nowwww arrrgghhhh.....kena the wind there better ... smeell the air also will feel goood ..... i tin i must gooo ... byeee
=( “TheOnlyEllysha.”

hmmm ..

i just dunoe should i be happy or should be sad wor ...im bk to single life ...
all i know is ,i try i try so hard to keep our love alive..i may now feel hurt .. but tyme will heal the pain ..Ellysha ... tyme wake up n lead a new life...

watever it is .. im here to tank for everytin for helpin mi n elsee ....
tc ... good luck .. “TheOnlyEllysha.”

seriously,i dunoe how to jakpeng . He seem lyke very the smgt satu min. I dunoe how many he told mi ,he wan n dunwan go for his graduation nyte.but he reali damn fuuny lo . He bought pant n shirt for the graduation nyte.for wat since he cant make up his mind. Macam merapek siak .suka hati dia la . Diri dia pe. No use tok to him also..fuck siak .today is a very shinny day ,nvr get to sentosa ..arggghhh...nxt week i tin i muz go........dah la .i wanna to go slip.nyte my fren.muackk misses n huggxx “TheOnlyEllysha.”

yesterday nyte .dpt pun kluar.tapi folow him go find the place tat he goin for course .after wen to shell station buy food to eat .after tat headin to chalet. Go chalet njoy awhile ten fall asleep. noon wakeup went to anchor point to eat .then he buy 2 billangbong pants.he also bought mi a new pair of bikini.this tat ten wen bk hm.taobao for my family food.relax liao ten housekeepin .at night actually mitin yatie for dinner.tapi shit happen...so went buy food with jakpeng..hor fun n hokkien mee...haizz. I realize i ptu on weight siak....sob..sob... Cannot lyke tat la.i nid to diet ....!t.2moro onward must strart diettt!aaaarrrgggghhhh!????? fat liao l “TheOnlyEllysha.”

yesterday nyte .dpt pun kluar.tapi folow him go find the place tat he goin for course .after wen to shell station buy food to eat .after tat headin to chalet. Go chalet njoy awhile ten fall asleep. noon wakeup went to anchor point to eat .then he buy 2 billangbong pants.he also bought mi a new pair of bikini.this tat ten wen bk hm.taobao for my family food.relax liao ten housekeepin .at night actually mitin yatie for dinner.tapi shit happen...so went buy food with jakpeng..hor fun n hokkien mee...haizz. I realize i ptu on weight siak....sob..sob... Cannot lyke tat la.i nid to diet ....!t.2moro onward must strart diettt!aaaarrrgggghhhh!????? fat liao l “TheOnlyEllysha.”

am i goin to just stay at hm just lyke last saturday!bosan siak!all the way at hm.werk dah from hm.off pun kat rumah!sumtyme reli hate my gfs..alway bz wif their own staff!fren pun macam lupa.haiz..reli miss the last tyme saturday..no one layan mi.bosan laaaaaaaaaa!!aaaaarrrggggghhhhhhh!!! “TheOnlyEllysha.”

9may09

my x mother in law cum n take my daughter bk for few days...
saturday was so boring ... at hm ..when my daughter not at home ...
my house was like so slient.... not use to it lo!!lol...hahah..

miss her lottt.....


10may09

mother day .. didnt get the change to celebrate with my belover mother ...lol! cox she werk ...
morning to night .... so in the afternoon wake up ..went to kopitiam to eat with my aunt .. buy food for my bro n jakpeng ... this n that .. bath n we went out to raffles place ... to the second hand shop ..skali nvr open .. arrgghh.. so after that went to city hall jalan2 n look for his tin ..he bought a grey pant from topshop cost him $116 ,n a long sleeve shirt from river island cost him $79.90..wow..
N at last i bought the ripcurl bag that i like ... hahaa!!!!cox mi $40..love it so much worr .. hehe ... n jakpeng bought mi a polo tee from river island cost $40 .. x siak ...this n that went to soul garden we makan there ... first tyme we eat there together ... but very boring la eat with him ... cox the steamboat pot is not full at all .. not shiok siak .. but i still enjoy myself .. eat this n that .. hahaha ... after that went bk hm .. n at night went to chalett!!!!! yesterday jakpeng told mi actuli he wanna to give in to mi .. but he cant .. cox he fight for his rite... baik pe .. n i tell him i will try to give in .. n u know wat he say ... no i dun nid to give in ...cox gal no nid to give in . ape ni ? sumtyme just dun understand la .... it seem that alot of tin that we do alway is not happy at all ... haizzz... i dunoe la ... just follow the flow will doo ....sumtyme in love is just like torturing...

This ain't the way that love is supposed to go!!!!!!
there dun have a peace of us ... hari2 mesti ade cite.... tak paham la ...


11may

bk from chalet around 2pm ..went o collect my [IC]haha .. i got IC liao horr.... hehehe ...happy siak ... after that went to west mall to mit my mum celebrate belated mother day for her wor..buy her a gold earing n bring her go eat ... heheh ....i forget to take picture while we eating .. hehe ... n actuli wanna to go c wayang ... tapi tak jadi ... cox my aunt saYsha say she can get the chiong CD ... so go n mit my aunt went to bukit panjang c the movie dise ..skali dun have the show that i want .. arrghhh ..kena con la !!!but i also buy 5 cd bk .. goin to watch later with KUANG XINDE .. mitin her awhile later .. i tin i stop here will load the pic soon ...

nyte frenss...

miss n hugg
=)

n not forget watever it is we fight or wat .. im here wanna to tq jakpeng for giving mi $350 for help 2 reduced my burden!THANK ARR!!!
once again HAPPY MOTHER's day to all the mother i know also ....alway stay young n pretty ....=) “TheOnlyEllysha.”

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