Yesterday .. Wen to west coast park with my anak n cik Jo family .. Flying kite there .. Rush bk .. Lambat so we ONI pray for ishak .. N lepak there then go bk Hm .. My adek sedara iman sleep at my place .. He n my anak sleep at my bed .. So now I'm sleeping below .. So kecian Lo mi .. Hee .. Ya allah yg tuhan ku .. A uzubillahiminasyaitan nirrajim Bismillahirrahmannirahim...,Astaghfirullahaazin..... Allah you the almighty god.. Amin . Subahanna Allah . “TheOnlyEllysha.”

Yesterday I pray with cik jo .. For ishak .. After that today I refresh bk sum knowledge of Islam .ruku iman n ruku Islam .. N I know how to shahadat already .. I'm still trying hard to learn .. Ya Allah .. Pls give mi more strength n make mintier stronger .. Protect mi , my anak , my family n People that I know from those evil .. Make all of us more stronger ... Ya Allah .. Ur the greatest god n almighty god .. Amin. (thank Abg Yan n cik Jo for teaching mi ) I will goin n nvr give up . Coz everything cum natural .. Ya allah show the right path to go on to .. Subanah Allah ... “TheOnlyEllysha.”

Today I read the praying for zhohor 4raka"at , maghrib 3raka"at n isha 4raka"at .. So proud of myself .. :) hopefully I will keep goin .. Allah pls bless mi, my anak ,family n friend n protect them from those evil .. Amin “TheOnlyEllysha.”

Starting to learn back everything .. Hopefully Allah will alway show mi the good path .. N keep mi more stronger . Forgive the sin that I have done .. I'm starting feeling proud of myself .. Coz I'm learning praying now .. I know it not that essay but I will try my very best to learn as much as I can .... My this weekend was great .. I love it .. Enjoy alot .. Oh shit ... I so want to have a baby .. After my anak us 6year .. Out of suddenly I have this feeling .. Aku nak ade anak .. I feel so jealous .... Hmph ... !! I will sabar . Hope I will have a baby with the person with really comit everytin with mi ,... No more thinking abt anytin .. Coz I want to have a free mind .. Don't disturb .. I wan to be happy .. Fuck you ! Heee.. Nyte :) B!:) “TheOnlyEllysha.”

Oh .. I feeling so bored in my life now... Oh .. Y ... Oh ... Im feeling whAt in my heart ? I also don't know.. I don't know how to tin .. Worst ! “TheOnlyEllysha.”

Everything I had done all just becoz I wanna to find my happiness .. I don't have busuk hati nak sakit kan hati org .. Knp org suka nak pikir yg bad Tin abt mi .. Aku ni ppm Jahat ke ... Thou new refresh everytin will turn good but no ... Why can't I just find that happiness that I have wanted so long .. So much tin happen .. Is like getting worst .... Doa yg baik .. Tapi tohan bum balas yg baik untuk ku ... Aku resah sedih ngn diriku ... Knp..? Ya Allah .. I tot in the very first place u r sending mi an angel ... But y everytin is different nw ... Tyme past My feeling just like turning round n round ... What I had done is already had done ...I shouldn't b upset pasal diriku ni .. Cox no 1 in this world will kecian kat Kau.. People ONI think of bad thing that u had done n not the good thing... Why must I alway Tin for other wen they font even care ... Why am alway so. Stupid.. I sorry if I do Tin that hurt you ... Afterall I realize that all is my fault .. If not mayb Tin won't happen this way ... My heart is crying .. Ade org ke bolh faham ? :( “TheOnlyEllysha.”

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