"Love has its own time, its own season, its own reasons for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coax it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you “TheOnlyEllysha.”

2 more day to goooo..... SENTOSA!yesssss

hehee... cant wait siakkkk “TheOnlyEllysha.”

“TheOnlyEllysha.”

“TheOnlyEllysha.”

today nvr wake up to do his breakfast.. too tired i tin .. sori ten ..
today wakeup late afternoon ..all the way at hm ..evening tyme went dinner with family memeber without him ..biasa la kalau out from my blk he wont go .. so use to it already ..actuli fren ask mi go double o 2nyte .. but i know he wont wan mi to go so im sory fren.. after dinner reach hm at 11plus..biasa .. he sleepin soon .. everyday is the same .. so i just make myself b the same everyday .. anw i tin i try to change like the pass i use to treat him . cook for him breakfast alway ..this n that .. i try .. dun fight with him .. i kip my mouth shut.. better way .. y must kip having those jealous feeling toward people ard mi leh .. y ?hmm.. sumhw i alway feel so useless in myself .. y? alway i tell myself i must b strong .. but end up i still cant .. i just nid those support is that hard? i dun understand myself at all ... wat i reli wan in life.. i tin it tyme for mi to tin abt future..i dun wan my life to be a piece of shit n unhappy .. i want to be happy myself .. there so much tin that i just so hard to xpress my feeling out .. but true is feelin suck lo.. heart pain who will understand ..the pain who can feel? no one xpext ownself..stupid people alway have their own stupid thinkin.. alway is like that de.. bad tin alot to say .. good tin very hard to hear .. why cant i just b so strong .. dare to face everytin n fuck care anytin .. i tin i should start to self seach abt myself..am i doin sumtin so wrong right now?
Dear god, pls give me the strength to stay stronger . amin “TheOnlyEllysha.”

from last night .. i just feel so upset...abt family ,money ,relationship n even frenship ... i got many tin i kip in my heart . cox even i say who can understand.. cox they wont feel how im feeling .. i must reli learn 2 b hidup sendiri .. no point depend for people.. make them feel like burden.. haiz.. my face still rabak ,my back still pain n now + stomach pain due with red light .. fuck up siak .. 3 in 1 lo ..suay siak ... why so suay siakk ... ape yg tak kena ni ..haizzzzz.....i feeling so emooo ... yyyy...i feel jealous so jealous people around mi . =(

Dear God, pls give me the strength to stay strong. amin “TheOnlyEllysha.”

feelin so sick of my forehead... having lot rashes siak ..i try to do sometin abt it . but end up go worst ..shit laa ... haizz.. nvr makeup also got rashes dun understand siak .. tin gonna c doctorrr... saw my face like that ..feel so sad .. no sweet.. haizzzz... so piss off with this dot her n there laaaaaa....arrgghhh.. my back also pain bcox of the old stupid pillow...=( pain ..pain .. “TheOnlyEllysha.”

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