it just so unfair!i know it past ..but i still nid a xplanation.. but when jakpeng came hm he dun bother to tok to mi abt it ... he can just fucking buat bodoh ?!!baik eh .. haha ... when the first i got to know him ..i reli he told mi he hate people to lie to him .. hmmm ..but he can lie to people eh ? lol.!bullshit la!!he can ? i cant ? tak macam merapek ke ? he scolded mi for this .. but yet he doin this ? tak baik ke ? hahs... i was like so piss off ... kalau on that tyme he nvr scold mi .. n nvr tell mi that ... when i n him break off..he nvr even go n msg or ask any girl to go out .. i wont b so piss off...n yet he got the face to scold mi like wat ..fair pe sial ... nvm .. biar ... i wont want to say much anymore .. no ... im trying to change ,even i go n msg naz again that ask him not contact mi n forget abt mi ,i even told him im not goin to tin about when im with him n else ..im deleteing everytin abt i n him ! becox i want jakepng to feel comfortable ... i dun wan becox of naz n we alway quarrel...n even alot of tin i try to do for him ..but he dun seem to b appreciate everytin that i do .. so why must i still continue to be like so good to him ...aku tahu aku prgai macam sial ... tapi aku tak macam dia more COLD BLOOD !ape siak skg..wat should i give sumemore? wat is not enuf siak ... i feel heart pain siak .. why must lie siak ...lose hp ..n this n that ...ape siak ..wat his motive ... i tot he say he dun like to ask people who have gf to go out .. n yet when i break off with him less then a day he being msging her x gf that ask for mitup for coffee n sumtin on ...n actuli her xgf is actually ATTACH?! im not jealous ... i know sumtyme tin we cant force ... n im the person who wont force sumtin if that tin is not belong to mine!!i feel heart pain siak ... abt like that he lie .. so later on wat he goin to lie to mi again siak .... haizzz....skg ni ape nak jadi then jadi la ..i prepare for evrytin ... im reli sick la ... not being appreciated... mcm i ni useless gitu gf siak ...u all tell la ...if u r jakpeng x gf ..what will u tin ..knp jakpeng alway will msg just her wenever we have sumtin on ...if u r a gal .. i tin u should at list feel sumtin also right ... haisss.....i reli out of word to say about him again ... i feel jaded n numb inside...
one more tin ..suay like hell la ....just now play manjong i lose siak ..i lose $32 siak ..suay lo.... after manjong go bath ... then go to my bed ... i check my another hp ... skali got a msg from his XGF[becky]again ... this is the sec tyme she asking jakpeng still using his old number?? knp she cant msg jakpeng at facebook or sumtin else leh ...y must cum n ask mi ???????????!!!!!!!!!!!n she even ask jakpeng new number from mi la siol...hahass... i saw that msg .. i was so angry abit ...she is asking mi my bf number ??!!! wat the hell right ?n in the same tyme im laughing also ... lol... i given her his number ... seem that jakpeng wanna to ask him out when i n him just broke off less than a day wanna to have coffee n sometin on with her ... they seem like asking for each other wat ... so i just give ... but im reli ok with it ..kalau they wanna to have coffee n sumtin on ... im cool ... notin wrong ...fren mah ... so just same as mi too .. notin wrong if i will go out with my GUYFREN.. right ? is fair n square ... today onward ... jakpeng u can contact all ur cute GFS or even out with them ... i dun mind it at all ... u know what u r doin can liao .... but one tin ...ur words? like i say ?? takleh pakai punya ...i dun make myself feel sad ... i will stay strong ... happy or sad still nid to pass a day .. so why not i just choose to be happy n pass a day ...n i will wont be so stupid like the past doin stupid tin n let myself suffer .. i swear ... watever i say i will do ... i cant bother anymoreee...... itin im goin to sleep soon ... go to my lala land... good morning frens ... i miss u all ... i reli miss pasts alot.... how i wish i can rewind bk my tyme n stop there ....

i just wanna to share sumtin ...if ur BF XGF cum n ask for ur OWN BF number ?how u all will react??? ok byeeeeee.....hahaha

it just so unfair??!!!!!!!!!!hahahahhahaha “TheOnlyEllysha.”

whatever it is i will still stand strong ... “TheOnlyEllysha.”

everythings seem to become meaningless. Why do I feel this way siak .missing alot of tin siak ..missing the past ..If everytin can rewind bk will be great.



Sim shi xia lang zai “TheOnlyEllysha.”

why is the meaning of life so meaningful , when the mean ones make it meaningless. “TheOnlyEllysha.”

Every time you "love" a person either as a friend or more, they say 'I'll always be there for you, no matter what happens,' but when the time comes, you find yourself alone. None of those people that you cherished and trusted are with you in your time of need. It's easier to go it alone, than to try to survive the hardship of reality. “TheOnlyEllysha.”

been long nvr update my blog liao lo ..haha ...

im bbkk again ..LOL.. haizz.. this few day reli not enuf sleep ..
Cox my aunt keep on cuming my place n ask mi go breadfast ... mati sia ..like that .... werk til 4am ... wake up at 10 plus sumtyme 12 plus ... wer got enuf sleep ..n im werking at 6pm wor... but luckily now .. from monday to friday for this month got my mum take care my baby ... cox she on skool holiday .. so i can get more rest .. no nid to send my bro to skool ..hahasss...my life now .. just same.. notin special at all .. still old same mi ..everytin same ...
oh ya today actuli cinder ajak mi go double o .. but i nvr go ...COX not all go mah .. if all gals go then i will go de wor... this saturday fiza ajak go st jame ... still thinkin leh .. hmm .. how leh . wan or nt ?i just want to spent my saturday enjoy n being happy ... if wan to go out with jakpeng .. also dunoe la .how to say ... haizz.. so should i just choose to go out with my gfs?? to enjoy myself ... this saturday mom is off for the whole day ... so i will be so freee the whole day ... so i dun want to waste this weekend .....oh ya !!!
i wanted to cook CURRY CHICKEN 2moro!!!but i nvr cook b4 siak .. so this wil be my first tyme ... hahahassss....
tank to jakpeng giving mi $150 .n poor him ..on 8/6/09 follow him to bike shopp..his motor kena BOOM!!! his waste $400 for his bike ... kecian ...we go out in the morning at 10am like that ... go bk at 8pm la ... long siak ....dah la .. notin special to write liao ....byeee! “TheOnlyEllysha.”

bk to circle again ..faham2 je lo...hees “TheOnlyEllysha.”

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