im serious dont know what is my head thinking about ... i dont know what should i do n else .. why must all my relationship cant really have peace at all .. im really wonder .. every of my new relationship i learn ,so i can handle it more careful..but it just that it not work it at all .... what so wrong about mi .. what have i really done .. why cant i can get sumtin wat other have ... why am i getting scare n not dare to give all out .. why is so hard to have someone to love n understand mi to stay happily til the end.. why must so many setan borthering ... why ? i trying to be so stronge even im not .. treating all my next day is a new good day.. but why it just cant work at all .. im forcing myself so much just to forget about my past n learning everytin about you .. n i really looking forward for my future with my anak n you ..but why things just go so hard for mi ... just hoping for simply in everytin is seem just so hard ... why must everytin goin down ... what is loveee? what is love ?? more than half years with bf .. sumtyme i really dont what he really want .. i find it .. it getting more n more harder .. i really hate it why must our partner ...so like suka hati ... being selfish .. nvr try to think everytin wat we have do for them ...otak kat mana ni ?? kat mana ni ??????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
knp guys??knp nak janji yet cant dooo...... dia pun cam gini u pun mcm gini ... ke krg ni nvr learn ke from ur past mistake ..... ? why ??? i want to in love with happiness .. n it not suffering ... why cant i just cant get those love ... i thou in love that is everyting ... you get love u get everytin ... if you nvr learn to do correction ... YOU WONT EvER had happiness forever ... you wanna to follow ur suka hati ... you will gain notin at all... love a women is just how you love your mum alsooo ....how you mum love n show u .. u must show it bk .. otak jgn nak pikir nak shortcut je... doenst mean i love you liao then you can take advantage on it ... no ..no .. our god is here to see what we do everytin ... im still trying hard to catch your mind .im still showing you the good .. sakit sakit pun biar laa... im someone can easy forgive people.. what you had do to mi n say to mi ...i forgive ... godd know ... tapi like i say i not those heartless person ...i know people alway do mistake ... but dont keep repeating the same old mistake ... if not for old you will oni suffer n nvr get any happiness.... i dont want to feel ashame again ... if reli my this relationship cant werk out ..cox i know i try .. n i learn .. im oni praying for the best ... fais if you say you love mi .. pls show mi .. pls change for the sake of our happiness ... “TheOnlyEllysha.”

On mc today .. Not well .. Whole day at home.. Just finish my dinner .. Kangkong Nasi.. Nice.. I know I'm gonna b happy .. I won't wan to cry or upset again for guys or whoever ... Just b my happy ownself ... Being selfish not in my list .. I gonna b most coolest person from now onwards .. I'm so sick n tired .. If I choose to b upset .. My story won't end ... So I choose to b happy .. What people advice mi .. I know all is good for mi ... Nw I will just c n walk another step .. I dont want to b hurt ... Sometyme I just feel so ashame .. Thou I got the best n everytin .. But im just too naive .. Nvm god got eye to c what we r doing.. How bad or watever I acept it .. What comes ard goes ard .. If you don't want that happiness .. Don't ever promise it .... Being human being is not being this way .. Not being selfish or showing ur bad ego.. Bad ego bring people hate u more n end up u won't get anytin ..... Jgn jadi org yg takda otak ! I'm cool .. No point .. Tok if people still wanna to think his own way .. If u nvr want to change end up u got notin at all ... Allah .. Allah .. Allah .. Show mi sometin to do n givenmi more strength ... Amin “TheOnlyEllysha.”

First day new year play manjong win 56.. Skali sec day lose 120 .. Nb.. This year Chinese new year no good .. First 2 day dah gadoh .. Pe leh buat .. I'm sorry for buay my gfs for outing .. No mood .. I njoy my last night .. Thank :) “TheOnlyEllysha.”

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