last two day i have a funny dream siak ..with sumone...the dream macam funny la ..haha ..funny ade,suke cikit pun macam ade....but it funny ar....ahaha...


yesterday werking ..from 8am to 6pm ...so bored ..not much werk to do wor ...n my daughter fever ar... so bring her to clinic lo ..i not enuf money ...so i ask for my mum first ..ten after that wen jakpeng cum bk from werk ..he gave $35 to my mum ..oh yua ..wen he cum he buy a big box of FERRERO ROCHER...inside got 25 ...hehe ..tq ...at around 8pm i follow him went to aiman ..he ghot mitin with his fren abt this cumin countdwn ....so reach there liao ...1 hour plsu like that we go off liao lo ...this n that ..he go jalan2..i got took the video ..merapek je lo..haha a...now is 7.30am liao lo..another 30min starting werk soon ...haiz ....sian siak ....boo!!!n ya ..i cant wait to wear my bikini tomorow ...yess..yes ..yes....muack ..jakpeng ..!!!n yesterday jakpeng sleep over my place ...ten i do breadfast for u ...grill chicken ,cheesecake n a glass of hl milk ..the cheecake we buy lo ..wow...the cheecake very nice ...hehe ...im goin to have sum later again ..lol... “TheOnlyEllysha.”

today notin special ..today werking morning from 8am to 1pm..after that ..i sleep for few hour ..ten in the evening tyme ..went to buy my bikini with jakpeng ..we went to 2 places..but is bilangbong brand ..i dun like it ...so went to marina ..at last buy at the ripcurl shop..wow... i saw alot of tin siak ...haiz ...but not much money to buy ..haizz..wen im goin to b rich ...hehe ..i wanna to shopp siak ..nvm wen got many money ten go buy ..tank u jakpeng for the bikini ..hehe ... saw his frens ... ten follow him n his fren go lepak for awhile ..ten my sister call...say my baby fever ...my anak funny ..in the afternoon play with the fren notin ... at night fever ...so awhile later we went bk hm ... ten i bath for my baby n let her place lo... but notin to do so i update my blog lo ...i will update the picture of my ripcurl bikini ..hehe ...once again ..tq for the BIKINI ..like it alot ...bluek ..good nyte to everybody ...muach ...i miss u all lot...=) “TheOnlyEllysha.”

“TheOnlyEllysha.”

yesterday afternoon wen to my skoolmate weddin at woodland ..the weddin very simply n nice siak ...i saw sum of my old mate ...hehe ..i got took sum pic ..i will load later ..but i wen off early ..cox goin out jakpeng all ..for his boardshort n my bikini ..so after all i mit jakpeng at the fren blk ...his fren ,lily n tini is there .. skali ...ape siak lily ...say i wear like that more nice ke ape dah ..then say the way i use short all like minah wor ..i was like ??minah ? haha ..ah lian la ..lol..like minah ke ?? hahaha..so after went bk to change send my bb to my grandmum hm ten went to vivo ...he meetin the frens there also ..lily n tini also hava..ok...reach liao ..we went to ripcurl shop to look for our tin ...sum of the fren is there already ..the first i went to shop ..i look for my bikini first ..i saw alot siak...afew i like the design ...but the price is like 100plus ...but i got to find one bikini nt bad ..is cost $79.90..i tot that goin to have a boardshort too ..jakpeng told mi scare not enuf ...scare over spend ...i know he anly promise mi that buy mi a bikini ..n mayb i ask too much liao lo..cox the boardshort cost $6oplus..n after all ...he say he if i wana still wan him to buy mi the boardshort ..later go we cant go out ...not enuf money ..so he ask mi go choose ..skali the fren cum... then the fren cum...ask choose already or nt ..ten u knwo wat he say ma ...he say entah la ..bikini dah $79.90.. sumore add boardshort is already 140plus ...i was like ..fuck siak ..asal kena cakap ngn kawan dia sia ..i so piss siak..later people tot i wat siak ...hate it siak ..if he reli dun wanna to buy n tell mi again n again wat ..no nid to tell his fren wat ...ten i say i dun it anymore ... so i just go outside n wait ...after all ..he went outside ..ten he ask mi still wan to buy or nt ...of cox i say dun wan la ...later the people tot i wat siak ..so we wen to go jalan ..siak ar .aku dah merajuk ..he can just walk infornt siak... the fren all saw....ten he ask mi few tyme nak beli ke tak nak ..i say dunwan la ...ten after all i n jakpeng go smoke at outside ...skali i want to take rokok in the paper bag ..siak ar... i tot he got buy mi the bikini ..skali ..nvr buy siak ..he just buy the boardshort oni siol ..my heart was like siak ar.. asal ni macam siak ..aku tak penah siak with a guy like that siak ..feeling so piss off ..sumore the fren n the gf ask dah buy ke lum ..n i say ya ..just the bikini ..end up he bought for himself ...cum on ar ...the bikini left last piece siak ...already i wan it ... haiz ...at ya ...he scolded mi puki mak ..wtf rite ...i was like dun wann to layan him ..n he say wat his fren pun can c that i merajuk siak ..siak ar..macam ppm tak merajuk siak ...before get bk with him ...yes it true that he only promise mi to buy bikini ..n he say unless im the gf ..he will buy the boardshort n anytin for mi ...cum on go bk with him is not becox of this tin siak ...sumhow is ur promise wat ...watever it is the puki mak words from his mouth ..reli kip deep in my heart ...tank alot ...now the tin is not im angry with not buying mi the bikini siak ..i juz feel like so fuck up why must he tell his fren that way ..my heart feel sad siak ...i bought for sumtin in the past ..even it 100plus ..i nvr every complain b4 siak ..if wanna to buy ..wat for wana to noise siak ..buy tin for people i dun like siak ..buy wanna to complain siak ..macam sial la ..i feeling so fuck up siak ..so after that tot wana to go bk ...skali ..he ride mi here n there ..but i dun even have the fucking mood siak ...!at last still can say today wan to bring mi go n buy bikini ..for wat kan ? i know this 2 month i use his money all ...nvm ...after that he stop at the road side ..he told mi that is not that he dun wanan to buy ...he wanna to save the money for the rest of the way ..is not he selfish or wat ...i say i dun wanna to heard all.....nw the tin is not bcox of the bikini ...n i know that he still dun get wat i reli wan ...biar la ..aku malas ar...baru je we bk for few day ..make mi feel like cry siak ..silly mi !!!haizzz..n im goin to save my own money ...use it very wisly ..so i dun nid peole help....watever it is the better is use own money to buy sumtin that we like it much more better ...even thou i reli like the bikini ..tapi takpe la ..got money nxt tyme also can buy ...oh ya ...jakpeng ...ingat ar..im not because of the tin ...u can go ask my gf ...takde pun tak kesah ...the main tin is with heart la ....dah la ..i n him ok abit liao ...but in my heart i still feel piss ar.... still upset with his puki mak ..fight je puki mak ..i tin this is the sec tyme already he scolded mi this word ..takpe ...i wan to c puki mak leh sampai bile ....haizzzzz...

bad day “TheOnlyEllysha.”

“TheOnlyEllysha.”

i told naz about all already ..that im goin to give jakpeng one last chance ..n i know this is very unfair to naz ... cox i have noe that he reli trying his best to show mi everytin ..yesterday nyte i was msn with him ..i dun really acept that ..he will tell mi those word..n im not shy to say that i even drop my tear ..his words reli touch mi .. but no1 will noe what goin happen next ...let c my life will be...=) erm ..hais ..dunoe wat to write la ..


I know you know ,u noe that I’m sorry .And I never meant to hurt you,Is there anything that I can do? To make it up to you ..I'll try to do anything .Cause I’m sorry ..I never meant to make you cry .I don’t want to say goodbye I’m sorry .. I’m sorry that I lied.I believe that everything happens for a reason..I know everybody makes mistakes And everybody regrets sometimes..we still nid to try to hard to acept it ..out of suddenly i miss u abit ..cum again ..i noe now I’ve messed it up .. pray to god above ..that you will forgive me ..n i tin i will miz him notin wrong ..cox tin just happen ..everytin take tyme ..once again im sorry to u naz:( “TheOnlyEllysha.”

yesterday not a good day ...my bro went mad ...n wanna to beat up mi n my mum ..i kena abit oni ..my hand now feel painful abit ar..my mum worse abit ...her head bleedin ..poor tin ..but cant blame..haix.. anw im bk with jakpeng again ..n this will be the very last chance i will b bk with him .. i hope there is no merapek again .. hope tin can go smooth ..tu je ..oh ya ..tank for the blessing ... “TheOnlyEllysha.”

“TheOnlyEllysha.”

this is my this raya celebratin with jakpeng n the frens..can say is my funny raya with him nthe fren oso ..cox sumtin funny happen ..lol...
“TheOnlyEllysha.”

“TheOnlyEllysha.”

just now monring wakeup ...wana to werk ..but i dunoe why my stomach pain like hell ...this tyme painful then the other tyme ...the feeling like my stomach wana to burst siak n sumtin pullin siak ....feel like wanan to cry siak ...sum i msg my boss that i cant reli werk ..i cant stand the pain liao ...so after that put sume oil ..ten i rest ...a few hour ...very pain ...ten go toliet ..skali ..i shit like machine gun siak....pain sumore ...this pain more painful then i give birth siak ..so i sleep for the whole day siak ...now 6plus already ...now my stomach feel better abit ..not that pain liao ..just now eat abit fried rice ...my mum cook ...eat sumtin in my stomach feel pain again ..so i drink more water then now feel better abit ...just now the pain is like 5 min pain ...now the pain is like half an hour pain ...poor tin mi ...sum got a bit cough n flu ...haizzz...
anw yesterday i sleep i dream about my x chinese boyfren siak ..i also dunoe why ..i dream that i was at his place ..i dunoe why im at there ..n toking to the mother ...n then out of suddenly my x chinese bf cum bk ...when i saw him i was like ...feel like wanan to cry ..n then i follow him to kitchen ..n i hug him very hard ....he say to mi again ..he was sorry for everytin ..awhile later i wakeup ..becox of the pain ...i was like feeel like crying siak ...but im so happy to dream about him n hugg him ten tight ...tq for the dream kiss at my forehead ...=) tan beng hock ...i do miss you alot ..watever it is ..u r alway in my little heart ..my love for u wont dissapear..there alway there...missin n hugg ...=) “TheOnlyEllysha.”

“TheOnlyEllysha.”

“TheOnlyEllysha.”

whole day at hm ..so bored!poor tin naz ..sumtin happen to him ..suay ar kau ...
boring nya ...tin goin to sleep soon ...cox werking in the morning later ...life r so boring for mi now !!!boring nak mampos !!!!arghhhh “TheOnlyEllysha.”

“TheOnlyEllysha.”

what should i say now leh ?erm ..entah eh ..too much things happen since last month til now ...just wanna to throw all problem n buat bodoh! ..i reli dunoe how to say siak..!Sometimes some people get me wrong!!!!!!!When its something Ive said or done..arghh !!but u people know ?what the story from A to Z ma ?haizz ..some people words can make mi feel dwn siak ..i know there a part of my wrong too ..but why in the first place i do it this way ?why ?!so if u dunoe well of the story ...so stop ur fucking mouth ...feel so piss with some people words lo ...puki mak siak !!arrgghh ...im on fire now siak ..feelin so NBCB lo..!!geram nya ..!!the story is being no ending kalau i nvr choice anyone or 1of them give up on mi ..why am i so hard to give a answer yes or no ? argghh .!!im reli so angry with myself also lo...u bth guy keep on telling mi is very easy..who to choose....but krg ni bkn in my shoes. u wont understand how the feelin ...wat i want is reli to get sumone who tink im im most beautiful in the world,wont try to look or tok to other gal,who cal mi bk wen i hangup on him ,who stay awake just to watch im sleeping,the one who kiss my forehead,who wantsto show the world that mi oni for him, who tin im the pretty without makeup on,who wont hurt mi ,who love mi,who can xplain to mi when im in wrong ,teach mi from bad to good ,pamper mi ,can be trusted ,spent alot2 of tyme with mi n my baby,bring mi where ever i wanna to go ,wont lazy,wont play behind mi ,give in mi alot,will all out for mi,care for mi,who make mi feel happy wenever im upset,treat mi like a princess... N just mi n mi n mi in his mind ..!is it too much i ask for ? i tin this is wat a gal reli wan ..am i rite?seriously ,im not reli in a rush to have a relationship ..but i wanna to like other also ...to have sumone beside them, sour ,sweet,bitter,hot together ...choose the best for mi ...actually ...like wat i told naz ..i wan to be with him till 31dec to spend tyme ..to judge everytin ..i dun wish to dragg tin long also ...n dun wanna to regret ...risk ?in love ? is true siak ..now this story is just like last 3 year story ...but i choose who i wanna to be with ..but now why is so hard for mi ..sigh ..n i tin now...i do love jakpeng ...n about naz ...i tin i like him alot ..i tin that is not love ..im so sorry if naz u saw this that i write ..i tot that i love u 20%..i tin i lie to myself bah ..i kip on thinkin ..i love or like naz ..but now i got the answer liao lo..i like you alot nazz...!wen im with u im so happy 1min n angry 1min ..hahs!the love feeling isnt there yet ...im sori to say this ..my love to jakpeng now is still the same ..nvr - or +...is just that we r no longer together liao...i know i do shit ..more rabak than u ..watever it is kalau in the very first place u pay attention at mi ..tin wont beum this way ....n i got a msg from jakpeng ...he told mi that [i think it over already last night..lets b fren..its better this way.so kalau elly nak klua ngn naz atau nak tido uma dia pun..aza tak leh stop elly from doing that ..mayb wat u say is true..i just nid to concentrate on my studies n carrier..but watever it is ..hope we can still be good frens..tak mau ade sifat benci and dendam between is k ..forever loving u] when i saw this msg ...i feel upset siak ..he telling mi that he give up on mi kan ?i know that is what i reli wan the bth of them to do ..but kata nak wait for my answer kan ? but nvm ..i tin is good also ..."u'll find someone way much better ok.trust me.a gd guy like u dont deserve to be treated dat way."am i rite? i piss with this words siak ...it just like all my wrong siak !!!bodoh nya !!!nvm la ...wat people want to say ..say until u all happy ..aku yg macam sial k ..arrgghh ..boring siak ..!friday night so lonely at hm ..benci ar!!! feel like goin seaside ..but ..haiz ..gf pun tak msg ..haiz ...benci arrr!!!arrgghhhh...all like very busy gitu ...=( naz today go JB ..at jb kip on calling mi siak ..ask mi do wat ,got jahat or nt !?ape je tau dia ...gile!!hehe ..n tell mi miss mi so much ..n say in the morning wen he bk from jb he wan to mit mi ..ask mi not sleep siao!!he say he buy dunhill red from jb for mi ..wow ..i wan siak ..i like ...hehe..tank for all the effort ..=)
pls:doesnt mean now jakpeng give up on mi n i will really wanna to b with u ...all tin i nid to judge ..i dun wana to choose wrong path la naz ...hope u understand! ..wanna Love me, hate me. You decide. i wont beg people to stay ... “TheOnlyEllysha.”

“TheOnlyEllysha.”

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