yesterday adi cum to my place ...talk to mi ...so we chat awhile .i n adi went to 7-11....b4 this i help jakpeng create a blog..he also wan ..so after that ..we go 7-11 buy water ,egg,bread..n jakpeng chocolate ..all adi treat ...tq adi ..eheh ...so after all ..wen bk to my place ...jakpeng study his exam lo ..n i n adi tok lo ...so after awhile i saw him fall asleep ..can ?haha.. so i ask him to go sleep at my bed ..ten he wake up n say takleh ...i nid to study n else ..n less ten 1 min ...tak leh ar..nak sleep ar...so he go sleep ..i tot he sleepin lo...so i tell adi alot of tin ...i told adi that i ask naz forget about mi ...n i say kalau people reali love mi ,sumhow people cum n find mi n else ..i tok abt jakpeng n naz ... i tin adi also head pain ...adi told mi that now i should do is ..be alone ..dun offen contact them n or mitup with them ...if not i cant think wat should i do ...ten awhile later my sister came bk hm liao ..n open the light n jakpeng wakeup ...he told us he listen from wat i n adi been toking about ...so he told mi that ..he wanna to let mi go ...he dun wana to c mi in this pain ...so i was like ...sad ..but i dunoe wat to do liao ...wat i know is just to cry ...my mind like stuck ...cant think of anytin ...n he tell mi go bk to naz ...y cant u bth understan mi ...!?!!why ?!!so awhile later ...i went to dwnstair alone without they knowin ...after 20min ..adi call mi ..but i did not pickup ...but at last i pickup ...adi came n find mi ..he scold mi why u go dwn just like this ...adi told mi ..she know that now i cant think anytin ....she hug mi n ask mi not to cry ...i was like ..this is the first tyme i cry infront of adi siak ..so malu siak ..haizz....n awhile later i go bk ..ten adi go bk ...wen i saw jakpeng lyin dwn ..n i ust go to my bed n jakpeng wakeup n say u go sleep k ...i also ccant sleep..so at last i sleep at his arm ..i reli fall asleep ...i kecian kan jakpeng ..cox later evening tyme he goin to take his exam ...but watever it is i wish he can pass his exam with good mark ...so he can do watever he wan .. to naz ..i dunoe wat he doin cox i nvr msg him liao ..i dun know wat he reli goin to do ...mayb he will just forget abt mi ...cox i told him just treat mi as a passby je ...but im sory to use this words to u ..i will say to u like that is beocx ...i dun wan to to sedih ...i hope u understan ...wat i nid is just tyme ...im sori to u bth ...



just now wakeup at 3plus or 4plus like that ..wakeup ..jakpeng say wan milo ..so i do for him ..n i went dwn to shop n save n buy chicken n crabmeat ..cox i wan to cook fried rice ...so cook fiinish ..eat together ..n after that he told mi that he wan to let mi go ...he say he not want to give up on mi ..he just wan to give in ..becox he kecian to c mi in this pain ...he dun wanna mi to be in pain ...but jakpeng say to mi ..he will alway love mi ...hahs?!!im just diam oni after all this he told mi ...i nvr say anytin ...i just say wat u wan to say just say ..my mind is not thinking that way ...jakpeng u say tin anytin u wan ...same as naz ..watever u wan to think u tin ..i wont beg u bth to stay ...cox i noe wat's meant to be,will alway find it way ..i now just wanna to find a way to be happy ..not to tin too much that all ..now i tell naz to let mi go ...n now jakpeng say he let mi go ...so now i should just kip myself slient ..that all ..i will not goin to jakpeng or naz ..so now even how fuck up it is ..let tymes tell ...i dun wanna to plan any tin or promise anytin ...cox i broke their promise ...im feel in dwn ar now ..serious ...cant do my werk ..but i still fight for it ..it ok ...reli dunoe why they just cat understand mi ..dah la ..nak contact just contact ..tak nak ten takya ...i dun force ...let tin to b natural ..but pls ...dun tin that im now doin this way ..im giving up so easily ...i do treasure everytin ..but the tyme is not right ..but watever it is ..i hope u bth can happy n i will be happy ..hope u bth can get sum1 better in the future ...n remember treat them well ....u all alway will be in my little small heart ..tc my loves...i tin i will be lonely again ...so i tin this tyme i shld find sumtin to do ...but wat is it ??wat huh ?erm ..haizz.....sian ar with my life like that .... “TheOnlyEllysha.”

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