Monday, November 10, 2008
yesterday night mitup with naz n the family ..lepak siak ...after that go bk monring ...told him alot of abt my problem ...about my family n my last bf ...tel him all n how i feel ..out of suddenly macam emotional ...siak ar ellysha ...mayb i know that sumtin i reli dun wanna to let go ..but i force to do it ..for his hapiness n mine ..but yesterday even yes im with naz n the family ..all while thinking of him siak ..macam abit worry lo ..wat jakpeng mi is true ..why i feel like that becox we juz break off ...sure got tis thinking .N ..yesterday he msg mi ..jakpeng told mi to promise him sumtin ...[remember we toking abt dosa..juz hope u dont do sinful things again pls ..n b gd to my mum..even thoush she alway nag at u or blame mi wrong ..alway tok to her low tone..dun rise voice..even i cant get bk with u ..but im happy if u stop all this stupid sinful things..i cant force u cox u pun tak sudi ..] this all he msg mi ..im here to tell u n say to everybody that im LIM XIAHUI
PATRICIA@ELLYSHA LIM ..i wont wanna to do any tatto,drink, n else ..i wanna to b good gerl ..i know i myself can do it ..i belive in myself ..n sumtin funny yesterday out of suddenly jakpeng name is not in my contact siak ?funny ar..cox i nvr delete lo ..dunoe hor ..i ask naz did he delete he told mi no ..erm ...is it sumtin showing mi that i shld reli let him go ke ape sia ...haizz...so watever it is ...yesterday i delete my 430 guy contact thru my msn ...i even delete my frenster oso ...i do view jakpeng profile...he delete mi thur his profile ..n the words 'SINGELHOOD'..sum how i feel hurt ... i cant feel this way wat ...im the one who wanna to b like this ...so blame myself ...so wateva it is yesterday naz family treat mi well lo...treat mi makan n else ...the mother seem to lik mi ...haha ..i tin so ..i tok to the mother n dad oso ..lol...naz told mi he like mi wor ...he ask mi sumtin ...i sure u will go bk with ur x rite?i diam ...he told mi yesterday ask mi to b his gf ...but i say no ...im into relationship ..serious ...i juz dun wan ar...even i know he can manje kan mi n can use up all his tyme for mi ... but i dunoe la ...nvr reli the feel toward him ..i do like him ..but not love ...sumtin he like his stupid matrip face lo ...macam nak slap je ..hahaha .....my stomach feel very painful siak ...dunoe why lo ..haizz ..anyway juz now jakpeng msg mi ..told mi help him to buy rokok ..so i buy for him liao ..he say he later cum n take ..ask i ask him ..nak mamam curry chicken tak ?hehe ..he reply nak ...left for him some ..cute kan ?lol...OMG?!!!wat tis ?ellysha?!!!u want to move on ..dun give hope eh ?!!!ggrrrR?!!!haha ...dunoe la ..miss him ...but i reli nid to learn let go ...i dun wish that bth of us is not happy ..i do love him ..miss him alot ...macam nak hug2 je ..but all now ...mayb can oni b in the dream oni ...lily told just now told mi that jakpeng msg him thru msg ...lily told mi wat jakpeng told her ..i feel sad abit mah ...jakpeng dun understand ...haizz...takpe la ...no one will reli understan wat my heart is thinking now even u all noe mi well ...but im jakpeng still msg mi ...=)im waitin for him to cum n collect his tin n cum n mamam ..heheh ...bluek ...nak hug u boleh ?!!hehe ...=)
pls:(1)jakpeng even i no longer with u ..remember to eat ,dun skip meal bcox of wan to save money k ..pls ..(2)pls dun touch ur face (3)dun bite finger nail(4)sleep early ...tq ...missing all my gf ...=)
