yesterday remember ?i say i wanna find plan ..we got plan liao ..haha ..go lepak n drink at toh guan coffe shop ..lol...i n lily mitin tini n yatie..we reach there first lo...so mani people there siak ...so awhile later yatie n tini reach liao ..ten we go find place to sit lo...so we lepak ..go order drink ..i so long nvr drink liao siak ..haha ..cant reli take it liao lo...dunoe why ...yesterday drink bcox got sum problem ..we drink n drink ..n tok alot m enjoi alot...laugh alot also lo ...skali lily bf cum siak ..so he lepak with us awhile ...n yesterday jakpeng n the fren go ridin ...but yasin n 1 of the fren paitao ...siak ar..haha ..so awhile later he go ...so tis n that out of suddenly we saw yasin again ..skali awhile later the another side all got siak ar... all my syg is there oso ..so i msg jakpeng sumtin macam sial ..i ask him nak main tak ?siak ar aku ..actually i dun tin is shy to say lo ..notin wrong wat ..do also with the love one ma ..not anyhw lo ..so i ask him buy mi milo peng ...but in the end im the one buy for him ..can ?drink liao ..sum more rain very haevily siak ...feel so horny ..so in my mind is with jakpeng ...ehem2 lo...hahah ..i do like him alot ...serious ..but sumtyme he alway make mi feel ..i notin for him ...why i got tis feeling leh ..watever it is ..after all ..told them wan to go bk liao lo..actuli jakpeng wanna to send mi bk ..but sum how cant ..cox raining n lily is goin bk my place oso ..ten we took cab bk lo ..yatie go bk zul hm ..kecian tini ...go bk alone ..after this n that reach hm ...my sister is at hm with the bf n 1 of the fren sleepin ..so i just wanna to move 1 fan to my side lo ...so she start to fight with mi siak ..ten after that my sister wake the bf up say she wan to go bk to his bf hm ..WTF siak ..is small tin siak ..ten my mum wakeup ...my mum blame all to mi ...why must like that siak ...my mum even side my sister siak ...my sister is like fuck ..nvr werk ...just know how to go out enjoy herself ..hm tin all nvr care ..all care is mi siak ...but wat i get in return ? i get notin lo ..serious ..i do so much for my hm tin ..but end up ...im alway the bad one ..why ..why tin shld be like this ...i feel so piss siak ...i love my mum so much ...but this is wat i get in return ..why ?life alway can go smooth for mi siak ...im make up my mind already ..im goin to hdb ...im goin rent a small house ...i goin to stay with my baby oni ...i will do it A.S.A.P...move out from this house ..i cant stand it anymore ...i nid to sumtin ..if not i will be more worse...so i cry ...my heart feelin so hurt siak ..wen tin happen like that my mother put the blame on mi ...after awhile wen dwn to mit jakpeng ..cox he sleepin at my place ..so lepak with him ..we tok n tok ..so after that he told mi about the sin that we do n wat we will get bk ..no one ever told mi this b4 siak ..serious ..he is the first person who tell mi sia ...i cant b stuborn ...sumhow he tell everytin is right ..he wan to go the right path ..he wan to b good ...but sumtyme i just no brain to tin ...im reli happy for jakpeng tellin mi this ...wat he reli wan is mi to be good ..i know that ...im here to say to u ..TQ..so after that we to my hm ...we sleep ..i sleep with lily ..n he sleep at my bed ...so after wen my mum out from hm ..he sleep beside mi ..i can feel that he hug n feel so warm ..the feeling is like..i dun feel like wakeup ...hope it will be stay the same ...but nid to wakeup ma ...after this n that ..we wakeup at 3plus if not my wrg ...we do wat we shld do first ..n ten i open the door ..i saw lily is outside ...alamak ..haha ..ten i smile ..lily cook rice n egg ..n give my baby makan ...tq lily ...so i eat1 egg also ...jakpeng hungry liao ..so he eat rice n egg also ..this n that ..i cleanup my house ..ten he wan facial ..actually yesterday i wanna to do for him but .i tin i rude to him ..so he go off ma ...so im doin for him just now ..i apply for him liao ten he ask mi to lay on his chest ...that wat i alway wan ..hehe ..n he whisper to mi that later he wan to tok to mi ..tyme up ...we in the kitchen we tok ...abt us ...will this is b the last facial for him ? ...n ten he ask mi wat i mean that i gotta go my own way ..i told him ..sumhow we click ..alot of tin we r not the same ..we bth r different world type...so he ask mi wat wan now ..i told him i tin it better he go his own way n i go my own way ...tis will only won make him feel hurt by mi anymore ..n he wont hurt mi anymore ...im so scare that this tyme i choose wrong path again ...he told mi alot of tin ...i know i do wrong also ..he do got lot of nad point ..but he do have good point of him also ...but i know he will change ..mayb it not now ...but i belive u can ..so before he go he hug mi tight n kis mi ..n ask for one last kiss for long2 wan ..can ?hehe ..i feel happy n sad abit oso ..a few tear drop also ..mayb im just emotion for awhile ..i dunoe ...my heart now ..feel like wanna to hug him now ..i know ..cant b happen ..cox ..i already do my decision..so i just nid to folow the flow..i nvr know how it will goin to again my life...family like fuck ..love life also like fuck ...watvea it is i know i will be strong for everytin ...i dun wana to hide it anymore ..i just wan myself to b happy n do wat i wan ..i will i dun feel right now ..but i still nid to face it everytin ...i belive i can ..even i will b alone or wat ...good luck myself ellysha ....jakpeng ..i still miss ur lip n hugg mani2...