Friday, November 14, 2008
yesterday i was werking and jakpeng teman me til 3plus .ten he sleep n he wakeup at 6plus to teman mi again ...on this day i felt something is different ..he reli manje kan mi ..n all like change ...bcox he reli wan mi ...he cry for mi alot siak ...but i feel so fuck up of myself ..so piss off ..make people around mi get hurt...why ?i dun mean to do this ...serious ...i can reli see jakpeng change ,After i finish werk ..i fall asleep ..ten jakpeng wake mi up at 5pm ...he pour for mi a glass of milk ..ten i go take my brother...the whole day he help mi to tc my baby ..without disturbing mi ..he ask mi to take out the red watch that naz give ...i say he merapek la ...asal kena macam gini sia ..org taknak ...abih i went to shit ...finish shit ten i saw him cry again ...he talking on the phone to lily .i feel sad and he ask mi not to leave him ...this is wat naz also ask mi to do so ..alot of tin jakpeng say ..all same with naz ...n how jakpeng treat mi yesterday is all like naz...why in early he dun wanna to do like this ..n after i start to fall for naz then he wanna change.why? im reli confuse now ...i reli cant stand him ..so i promise him i will try to forget about naz ..i took off the watch for awhile ..but jakpeng ..actuli i reli dun wan ..so i just tell him dun cry ..i wont leave him ..to b wit him ...n actuli he wanna to bring me out to spend tyme with mi ..but i reli wanna to go double o ...cox my gf n naz ...i tot i wanna to c him the last tyme .
so is tyme jakpeng send mi to double o ...reach liao ..saw kin,zul,lily n yasin ..skali shila also just reach ...i look ard sia c wer is naz ..but cannot get ..so lily told mi he wan to msg naz ...lily say to mi kau takmo kecian kan jakpeng that why u wanna to go with him ...u go with naz sudah...i was like...haiz ..i dunoe la ..i already promise jakpeng ..i dun wan to c him cry again .i feel sad too ...so go in to double o ..sit at pool table side ..skali i saw naz la ..ten i take book n cover myself siak ..i so paisei lo ...then after all went to dance floor...skali went back to our table ...alamak ...naz is just beside mi siak ..fuck ...i was like ..shit ar... grr?!!!but i just ignore la ...dance with my fren je ..n i got a lot of call n msg from jakpeng ..i know he reli worry ...i know that ..i told myself ..must not have anytin happen ..but actuli went i went in to double o ..i already feel that sure that sumtin happen ..so wen to smoke with my gf ...got guy ask for my number siak ..i was like ..nvm la ..takyah la ..skali is true ..i saw naz dancing with other girl siak ..i was like fuck ..like NBCB?!!i just fuck care ar..when i was dancing with lily this guy cum n touch mi siak ..is naz frens ..so lily scold ar... ten lily told mi i tin mayb naz told the fren this girl can use ke ape ar...i was like feel so piss ..serious ar....so i went out myself ..n i msg naz ...i told him i wan to mit him ..n he cum out...so i ask him u tell ur fren anytin is it ..so he tell mi he nvr tell anytin ..he say the fren matrep siak ..n he say if he saw sure he say oit ..the girl my gf la ...n he say if i will say who ur gf ..ten he will say act as drunk ..siak ar ..n ten i know everybody looking for mi ...im sori my gf about yesterday ..we tok liao ..n ten i find cinder out n talk ..i told her ..i reli dunoe how now ..serious ar...stress siak ..so she tell mi take ur tyme ...yup ..i wan my tyme now ..so i msg jakpeng i say im sori i wanna to break .i nid tyme n i know that i broke my promise ...im sori jakpeng ...im reli in confuse zone ...i hope u understand ...so after all ..all my fren go liao ...lily n shila all wan to go bk ...so nvm la ...haiz ...i tin all piss off with mi ..i also dunoe wat the fuck i do ...up to u all la ...krg tak tahu ape aku rasa now its fine ...takpe la ...wat i can say is im sorry ...im sorry to everybodi ...10000 tyme sori .....all leave mi liao ..i no money siak to go bk ...endup he send mi bk .
morning at naz hm ...we cook maggie ,egg,hotdog n fishball ...now smoking ...n tok merapek...his mouth like cb?!!!!bodoh ?!!!grr?!!geram aku !!!benci bodoh ?!!cinder kol mi up ..told mi yesterday jakpeng cum dwn n pick mi up n the rest of my gal told him that im with naz ..i just know siak . .i feel sad y my gf all dun wan to tell mi ..just cinder told mi this ..n i dunoe who say tell cinder not to tell mi that he cum ..
