Saturday, December 20, 2008
what should i say now leh ?erm ..entah eh ..too much things happen since last month til now ...just wanna to throw all problem n buat bodoh! ..i reli dunoe how to say siak..!Sometimes some people get me wrong!!!!!!!When its something Ive said or done..arghh !!but u people know ?what the story from A to Z ma ?haizz ..some people words can make mi feel dwn siak ..i know there a part of my wrong too ..but why in the first place i do it this way ?why ?!so if u dunoe well of the story ...so stop ur fucking mouth ...feel so piss with some people words lo ...puki mak siak !!arrgghh ...im on fire now siak ..feelin so NBCB lo..!!geram nya ..!!the story is being no ending kalau i nvr choice anyone or 1of them give up on mi ..why am i so hard to give a answer yes or no ? argghh .!!im reli so angry with myself also lo...u bth guy keep on telling mi is very easy..who to choose....but krg ni bkn in my shoes. u wont understand how the feelin ...wat i want is reli to get sumone who tink im im most beautiful in the world,wont try to look or tok to other gal,who cal mi bk wen i hangup on him ,who stay awake just to watch im sleeping,the one who kiss my forehead,who wantsto show the world that mi oni for him, who tin im the pretty without makeup on,who wont hurt mi ,who love mi,who can xplain to mi when im in wrong ,teach mi from bad to good ,pamper mi ,can be trusted ,spent alot2 of tyme with mi n my baby,bring mi where ever i wanna to go ,wont lazy,wont play behind mi ,give in mi alot,will all out for mi,care for mi,who make mi feel happy wenever im upset,treat mi like a princess... N just mi n mi n mi in his mind ..!is it too much i ask for ? i tin this is wat a gal reli wan ..am i rite?seriously ,im not reli in a rush to have a relationship ..but i wanna to like other also ...to have sumone beside them, sour ,sweet,bitter,hot together ...choose the best for mi ...actually ...like wat i told naz ..i wan to be with him till 31dec to spend tyme ..to judge everytin ..i dun wish to dragg tin long also ...n dun wanna to regret ...risk ?in love ? is true siak ..now this story is just like last 3 year story ...but i choose who i wanna to be with ..but now why is so hard for mi ..sigh ..n i tin now...i do love jakpeng ...n about naz ...i tin i like him alot ..i tin that is not love ..im so sorry if naz u saw this that i write ..i tot that i love u 20%..i tin i lie to myself bah ..i kip on thinkin ..i love or like naz ..but now i got the answer liao lo..i like you alot nazz...!wen im with u im so happy 1min n angry 1min ..hahs!the love feeling isnt there yet ...im sori to say this ..my love to jakpeng now is still the same ..nvr - or +...is just that we r no longer together liao...i know i do shit ..more rabak than u ..watever it is kalau in the very first place u pay attention at mi ..tin wont beum this way ....n i got a msg from jakpeng ...he told mi that
[i think it over already last night..lets b fren..its better this way.so kalau elly nak klua ngn naz atau nak tido uma dia pun..aza tak leh stop elly from doing that ..mayb wat u say is true..i just nid to concentrate on my studies n carrier..but watever it is ..hope we can still be good frens..tak mau ade sifat benci and dendam between is k ..forever loving u] when i saw this msg ...i feel upset siak ..he telling mi that he give up on mi kan ?i know that is what i reli wan the bth of them to do ..but kata nak wait for my answer kan ? but nvm ..i tin is good also ..."u'll find someone way much better ok.trust me.a gd guy like u dont deserve to be treated dat way."am i rite? i piss with this words siak ...it just like all my wrong siak !!!bodoh nya !!!nvm la ...wat people want to say ..say until u all happy ..aku yg macam sial k ..arrgghh ..boring siak ..!friday night so lonely at hm ..benci ar!!! feel like goin seaside ..but ..haiz ..gf pun tak msg ..haiz ...benci arrr!!!arrgghhhh...all like very busy gitu ...=( naz today go JB ..at jb kip on calling mi siak ..ask mi do wat ,got jahat or nt !?ape je tau dia ...gile!!hehe ..n tell mi miss mi so much ..n say in the morning wen he bk from jb he wan to mit mi ..ask mi not sleep siao!!he say he buy dunhill red from jb for mi ..wow ..i wan siak ..i like ...hehe..tank for all the effort ..=)pls:doesnt mean now jakpeng give up on mi n i will really wanna to b with u ...all tin i nid to judge ..i dun wana to choose wrong path la naz ...hope u understand! ..wanna Love me, hate me. You decide. i wont beg people to stay ...
