Tuesday, January 13, 2009
yesterday ..wat a night .. about mi n my x ..but nid u people to understand abit ..
2007 oct ...before hari raya day i n my baby been sleepin at my x hubby place ,n why im sleepin there , even though i n my x hubby already not together the reason is bcox of my daughter ..she cant be alone without mi ard...n mingfu himself know it very well about this ...i even explain everytin to him ..tok to him whenever he kol wen im at my x hubby hm ..no i have notin to hide or wat ...n after 3 or 4 day hari raya i went bk home ..n b4 i went to my x hubby place ..i n mingfu are still doing good as usual. ..no fight no dispute ..very loving even told mi that he miss mi alot n this n that ..wen im at my x hubby place ..i even online with him , or tok to him on the phone ..everytin goes well ..after 3 0r 4day went bk hm ...
first tin i call him ..tell him im bk hm...he told mi that he at jrg point with his fren watching movie i wan to give him suprise ma ..ten i tell him im tired so i went bk to sleep ..but after that few day we nvr mit ..i also forget because of wat ...skali ..after this few day ...he ask his fren to kol mi ..n say he wanna breakup with mi ..i was like ..huh ?ok ..my mind was tinking that few days later sure he find mi bk ..but he didnt ..so i start to msg n kol him..so i tell him that im goin to wait for him at the old place..he told mi that his at town otw bk ..n i waited for him for nearly 1hour plus ..so when he reach . i try to tok tin out ..im asking why ..he wanna to break ..he told mi that ,we dun click,he very stress too ,much things to think , i ask him wat make him stress but he is speechless .. i dunoe y ..it funny lo ...so he even buy mi cigarettes n put money inside for mi ..i cry siak ..n he even drop his tear ...n he tell that dun tin too much . ..he just too stress ..so i hug him ..but he seem like dun like it .. n i feel so awkward ..first tyme he react this to mi siak ..nvr ever siak .so i took my tin n i go ...after i go ..he call mi alot of tyme but i reject his call n msg ..i even dun bother to reply ...afew day paz..my sister bf sis get marry ...so on that tyme i cal his fren n ask ..where is mingfu ..i ask his fren wat happen to him ...his fren told mi that the mum dun like mi ..so it mean because the mum that y he break ?so i decided after the weddin i went dwn to his place ..i even msg him that i will be waitn for him until he bk hm ..luckily i got my gfs shila to accpy mi ..it rainin sumore ..so cold ar... luckily shila is there for mi ...so wait till morning at 6am ..saw the mum ...the mum ask mi how cum im here ..n u all fight is it ..i told the mum ya we fight ... n i asked the mum ..auntie u dun like mi is it ? n the mum say she nvr say this b4 ... if the mum dun like mi why the mum cook my favourite dish n ask mi cum to eat leh ...so the mum say dun tin anyhow ask mi go bk first ..then i say ok ..so i went bk ...after that i ask shila to kol him ...he pickup ...ask wher he is .he say he otw to camp ?? wer is he wen im been waitin for him ???...i know that in the past whenever we fight or wat he always wait for mi at the old place.. for whole day n else ...but is this revenge bk ??
i dun tin so .. being nearly 2 year i know him well siak ..my family,my frens got eye s to see how he treat mi ..how well is it ..how touching stuff he ever done to mi...so after that i ask him why he nvr cum bk ..i even say to him i cum n mit him at outside his camp ..he said no ..n he say if i dun go bk hm he dun wanna to tok to mi anymore ..so i went bk hm ..i cal him ..ten we tok for awhile ..he told mi he busy..he got tin to do ..so im online n go frenster to c his profile ..im reli fucking sad siak ...wen i saw he have the gut to put he n the girl picture siak ..but why he dun have the gut to tell mi all ..at least he told mi that i will understand..i ever told him before ... if he dun love mi anymore or have sum1 else .tell mi ..dun hide ..i will understand n let him go ....but why he wanna make things so complicated leh ...so i cry like mad women ..n call him up ..i ask him why must u do this to mi ... where all ur promise to mi ..if u cant promise mi then dun ...isnt fuck up ?
so how do you feel if u r in my shoes?n 1 of my gf tell mi she actuli saw mingfu with a gal ...n my gf ask him wer m i ..n mingfu say im at hm ..n my gfs ask baobao know or nt u at outside with gal..n mingfu reply no ..u c?haiz.. that part i start to hate him alot ..i dun understan ..why cant he tell mi the truth ...i being so good to him n becox of him .my gf say i change ... cox i stop party n else because him ,not much gathering with my gf ...becox of wat ,i do this ... becoz im too stupid to belive all his words n really wanna to settle dwn with him ...my aunt n my cousin ..tell mi ..he is not a good guy ,he have no future n else ..b4 we break ..my cousin did told mi this ...he have no future ..if i choose to be with him i will suffer alot...but i nvr tin of this when they say ...cox i know true love sure got suffer ...n i reli love him ...he is my first chinese bf in my life ...n there too much tin that he do to mi ..n make mi feel that is different with malay guy ...after break off... i tell my gfs n family ..i n mingfu break off liao ...all say ..haiya u all awhile oni ..sure get bk ...n i told them this tyme is different ..cox he got a gf liao ....everybody was like ..dun belive it ..i myself also dun belive it ..so day pass ...i being waitin for him ..i heard that 3month later they goin to get married. i was shock ..less then a week we break ,he get attach,now after 3month get marry ..all tin was like so fast lo ..i told myself i cant continue like that ma ..i belive that even u love sumone doesnt mean nid to be with him wat ..as long as u see him xinfu can liao ..this is wat i tin la ... so i continue with my life this n that ...try hard to forget abt him .. if im sumone who easily forget about a person that mean the relationship i took it is not seriously ..all my fren n family got eye to see... how well i treat him ..even i fight with him n else ...what he do ..all my fren got eye to see..
n yesterday cin helpin to msg with his wife..found out alot of tin he lie .... he told the wife that he single on sep ...n we break off on mid oct ..wat this ??? siak ar..why must this kind of tin happen to mi siak ... n the wife thinkin that we r trying to spoil their marraige ..we r not ... that all the fact wat we say to her ... but she keep on say he belive his husband ..n say the fren all got eye to see n else ...so how about my fren ? no eye to c ? ...i reli wanan to tank my fren helpin mi this ...to xplain all to her .. i dun tin i wrong ...all i ask my fren say is a facts..all because of mingfu .i tin til now sure he feel bad...really nid to thanks for leaving mi that tyme...to c wat kind of person is he... belive or not up to you all ...n i know ur gf is all helpin u lot ..n this n that ...n like my gf too ... cox this is call sister luv =)ur frens ? say mi this n that ?about pretty ? fatter? look n size is not important ...important is good heart ...look wont buy u forever .... n im not fat ok ..im chubby ..u know wat is really fat ma ? i mean to ur fren ? wat is fat u know ?? go wear spec ok ..all my mind to tin is ....u oni win mi because of u slim .that all ..=) ... i belive wat cum goes around ...so let c ...n im not against her wife ...i have notin to do with her ... it just that maybe misunderstandin ..easy to say she is ego ,just belive his hubby ..so let it b ...ur hubby n gods oni know everytin ...
pls:: gfs ...stop taggin their box or wat ...ignore oni ..unless ...WE WILL TAG HER AGAIN SOON IF EVIDENCE IS FOUND..so no point kip taggin her ..let it b ...just make it a stop pls...i understand all of u love mi ...i can feel it .. i reli tankfu all be ing there for mi n else ...even i ever like not realy contactin with u gals ...i dun wanna to be naive anymore .... this is my lesson ...i should learn from my mistake ....so about my love life now ...just hope tin go smooth ... im goin to throw all out ...it just that ... i cant take this kind of game siak...i scare ...im sory ...k ...n mayb sum way of my writin ..they dun reli understand ..cant blame ..so let it be ..as long as they r happy ..kip on talking until all happy ..no point toking to sumone that ego ..cant acept the facts!tat all ...merapek punya budak!!
what is past is past.Now i have my love life once again.so hopefully nothin like this happen again.
