Wednesday, February 18, 2009
this few day lily sleeping at my place ... with shila also .. we lepak n all ... yesterday got to mit cinder also .. we lepak this n that ... n julia is cuming also ... cinder at night then cum dwn .. haha ... i so happy got to mit all of them .. but kalau fiza n rina have .. that is more wonderful lo .. haha ..
sumtyme i reli dun understan leh .. mi n jakpeng also fight .. if not mi start ..then he start .. we bth r too sentitive nak mampos liao la ... we bth alway got our own way ... sumtyme i just tin how should i do n lese ten can be peace .. im so tired siak .. i know jakpeng also being so tired ... i dunoe how la... then we will be more better .. i tin after the tin accident tin ... i dunoe why leh .. i feel abit tawa hati liao ... i macam like wanna to dun wanna to fight ngn dia ... tapi i dunoe how to find a way to stop all this siak ..macam mana eh .. haiz ... i being more tired siak ....i reli wanna to treat him nice like the past .. i like try ... tapi whenever i wanna to try he just make mi feel so disapointed siak .. macam mana ... but he alway dun seem to be understan lo ... even i know my frens dun understan also why i still wanna to be with him ..say im so easy to get bully ... n being so soft hearted also ... but macam mana eh .. im alway so weak in love siak ... alway soft ...soft n soft ..haiz ... i wanan to be strong ... tapi how ? haizz c him like that i also heart pain ... i kecian him alot ... but he dun seem to know that also .. that is what make mi feel sad n no confident at all ... i so much tin already tapi i see he like nvr rasa like that sia .. tell mi la ... macam mana la ... he can faham mi .. wat i reli want ? i know that he stay at my place ... he alway say he spent his tyme for mi now .. but not his budak2 ... tapi ..sumhow he dun understan what my spent tyme means ..his thinking is like ..when he at hm with mi is spent tyme ..? haiz .. not this way lo .. sumtyme i feel so funny is ... whenever wen my frens is at my place he can sure sleep late ... tapi when im with him .. he more to buat diri je .. n sleep early .... i dunoe la ... my heart feel so blur n confuse siak .... tell mi la .. what should i do more ...what should i reli do leh ??? n reli be peace in our relationship leh ... how arrr??im so penat leh ... penat nya .. reli penat ...haizzz.. i wish to be happy with him ...reli .. kalau leh i wanna to be with him till the future also ...but he alway so hard to understan mi... i also so hard to understan him .. we being for 1 year plus ... the tin that i see it just the same from the start til now .. cox he still makin mi upset ... like my gfs say ... i rather u go bk to your x hubby or being single goin out with my guys fren is more better ... but i know that they care for mi .. they dun wanna to c i alway being hurt that all .... but wat i can say is i know in relationship sure will be like that .. tapi i know also .. kalau we kip on being this way ... we soon will break off ... so i tin now i should find a good way to stop all this .... im still thinking ... but pls ar... i have enuf for the lie from u ...plsss ...about the valentine day n nyte u lie to mi ... u nvr teach mi more ... n yet u makin mi more no confident at our relationship ... but i know i cant kip thinking about it ... if not my heart dyun feel good at all ... kip on makan hati feel so sick of it ... so now i wont say more n much .. let it b ... but i just can say ... kalau nak buat macam sial lagi ..tat it ... i cant stand this kind of merapek anymore .... i write this all in my blog is not to let u frens thinking bad of him .. it just that i wan u all to understan all ... i hope u all dun tin bk about him again ... u all should support mi ... ok gfs...
tomorrow gfs is goin to lily place... haha ... cant wait siak .. lepak til morning ... lalalaaa=)
just dun understan knp aku syg dia la .. tak faham .. haha ... pls ..dun advantage kalau u know that i syg u ... pls ar...
