2 nights,he not with mi ..i started bk to drink..only to drink,then i can have a good sleep ..i know it sinful ..he also got told mi wat the outcum ..but i just dunoe wat to do anymore.. in this of tyme i just need someone to be my side ,care for mi, advise mi , tok to mi, accmpy mi ..last nyte i drink under my blk alone ..skali saw my old chinese godbro n ice... this bth is my childhood fren ... i tin we know more then 10year .. we mit bk at coffee shop n we drink togther ...tank for all that advise n accmpy ,listeing to mi n else...so how peoples is not in my shoes ... peoples wont understand how im feeling now .. im forcing myself to stand strong .. i hate when goin turn to nite.. cox i will be all alone in my room .. im so scare of the dark n alone..im lonely.. i hate this ..i have no one ..is just mi n my baby ..but my baby is sleepin with my mum in her room .. i know whatever it is .. tin already happen .. i cant rewind bk too ..so i nid to face it .. but i reli miss all so much .. morning kiss ,gd nyte kiss , the huggs , sleep on his chestt ,smell his umpit before i sleep, sleepin on the same bed togther having the squeeze feeling in my small bed ,sharing the blanket2gether,n his snoring ..we have been bk i tin been 8month ..so this 2 nyte without all that i really dun feel right n even make mi cant turn to sleep.. so i just drink as much as i can ,cox oni this can make mi have a good sleep .i know he dun like mi to drink ..can say i already Q when i with him .. but i just hope he can understand why am i doin this ..im sad :( “TheOnlyEllysha.”

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