sometyme just blame myself why am i havin this kind of life nowww.. so much shit to go thru .. everytin is just so unfair .. why just cant everytin go smooth for mi ?why ? or i should just admit this is my lifeee.. i should acept itt ..until now i still cant even find sumone who can really understandin even bf or gfs.. i feelin so sick n tired .. im tired laaaa.... tired nak mampos looo... every night b4 wanna to sleep ... i feel upset n i cry but without sound off..i dunwan my family know it ..i alway ask myself what should i do for my future ... in life n relationship is full of shittttt.... why must i have those stupid feeling ..why ? for now i also really dunoe wat kind of relationship im having now .. should i be happy or sad... too much tin i n him just cant get along .. tyme passes i feel that he not really that guy that actully i want ... i really dunoe wat should i do sia.. with him i just cant feel those sparks ... in relationship if there no sparks it wont really work .. i alway wish every night i sleep .. i will still get those manje ,those hugg, those joke,those kiss,those feeling is so warm .. till now i cant feel from him.. but just yesterday happen ... while im closin my eye .. he pull mi so hard to sleep at his chest n kiss at my forehead .. i tin it been so long he nvr do that to mi ... the longer we together it seem like our words goin lesses..n i tin everytin also goin lesses... i really dunoe what should i do ... i have been so obey to him ..listen to him watever he say .. do for him n this ... but did he ever really tin of it or not ... i dunoe la wat should i do sia... haizz... i feel so so useless la...=( “TheOnlyEllysha.”

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